I seem to go from feeling sad and stressed - to happy and feeling so content with my life - within a 24 hour period.
Making the big decisions in life alone is a scary thing. I do call on and trust the people in my life - I have been blessed. But it still falls on my lap.
I start in the morning with helping my 10 year old get ready for school and listening to all her 5th grade drama, then on to my teenagers who complain about their teachers and between wanting a job, a boyfriend, social time and coaching soccer don't have time to do their chores - oh and can they have gas $$$???? Then my 20 year old calls and is just starting out and has so many questions about life and love - my heart worries for him daily. Can I give these children that God has trused ME with, the right direction and advice??
Where should we live? This house is tooo much mula. Should I be on a TIGHT budget and get a little place for me and the girls - should I lower my pride and go stay with my parents?? (which the girls are all for by the way). I am thankful for just having the options.
Then I'm juggling working 2-3 part time jobs (which is another blessing - I love what I do!!) But I do get a little tired which can make me a little SASSY (as my bro-in law Donald so lovingly told me). I need to work on patience and getting to bed earlier! I get up at 5:30 to meet Jill for our workout then end up staying up late doing "stuff". I've decided I need more than 6 hours of sleep to function rationally.
There are no easy answers to my life. But I'm trying to give it all to God. He has never failed me - I've always been so blessed.
My Aunt Lois just sent me an email with this verse (literally while I was typing)
Psalm 55:22 'Cast your cares on the Lord, and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall.'
Thank you Auntie - that helped!!
And the other verse I've been trying to memorize is:
A song of ascents. 1 I lift up my eyes to the hills— where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you— the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.
Thank you Lord for sustaining me in the midst of chaos and fear.......and for stopping my head from spinning :)
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