Tuesday, January 20, 2009

2 years

It's hard to believe that 2 years ago today I lost my husband. I'm always looking for reasons and trying to understand why. I know that we don't have all the answers and we are not meant to! So I try to figure out what he wants with my life - what can I do to still glorify him in this process. And here are some things I've learned:
  • God is always faithful to his promises
  • He will provide
  • Loved ones should never be taken for granted
  • Friends are gifts from god
  • He is not done with me yet - I am but clay
  • I have so much to be thankful for and there are people out there with far less than me
  • There was so much more to me - and I'm continually growing and surprising myself
  • I need to live life to it's fullest - never waste a day
  • I've learned to put down my pride and accept help
  • There can be joy in the pain

There is so much more but these are the things that I run across daily. I can honestly say that today I am happy, I have a good life, my kids are healthy and happy, I have a huge loving family and great friends. When life goes on - this is what I have, and I am blessed.


Today my older girls stayed home from school and we just hung out. We had a nice breakfast with my friend Tavia, then we went for a very special walk on the beach with my friend Kelly and her daughter Shelby. We had great conversations and some laughs. Later we met up with the family at the cemetery. I have a journal where I write down things that I want to remember about John - good - bad - funny, and I took this along and read some of the good things I want everyone to remember. Then everyone shared some more fun memories they had of him - I want these to stay alive in my kids hearts. We ended the night with a great dinner with family and friends - just like he would have wanted it.

After he passed away I went to move his car and this was the song that was playing in his cd player. I think it was a message to us from him or just a coincidence, whatever, it's a great song and we like to think it was written for us :)


My Wish
by Rascal Flats

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,
if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile,
but more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more then you take.

But more than anything, Yeah, and more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
this is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you

may all your dreams stay big


It really was a good day, as good as a day like this gets.

8 comments:

Nyla said...

Amazing strength Shannon! Thanks for sharing this with everyone. You are such an amazing women!

Anonymous said...

As always, you are one of the strongest people I know! I admire and love you!

Kate S.

Joyful Weddings and Events said...

I am glad the day was great. We had fun with you and love you very much!

Chrissie said...

Sounds like the perfect way to spend a really difficult day.
I loved reading your list of things you've learned through this process.
And I just really, really love you!

Cathi Hamen said...

yes this is " John's song!" What a fabulous day for you all! I am soo proud of you and our great God is too.. "...well done my good and faithful servant..." reference??

CLR said...

Shannon,

You are amazing, and you are doing such an awesome job with your life and your children!!! You are an example they can always look to when life gets tough!!!

I love you!!!

Shannon Tague said...

wow, what a beautiful song. im so glad you found me on my blog! and yes we must get Toby and Codi together ;)

Kristen said...

what a beautiful way to spend the day. you are so strong and your outlook is amazing.

i was praying for you and your family.

you are amazing and an inspiration. i am glad i can say i am related to you! love you!