Wednesday, April 16, 2008

i'm missing you today.

No particular reason,
no particular season.

I'm missing you today.

I miss your smile,
haven't seen it for awhile.

I'm missing you today.

I miss the "Mi Amor"
that greeted me when you walked through the door.

I'm missing you today.

I'm feeling the hole in my heart,
I never thought we'd part.

I'm missing you today.


My first post was one year ago today. As I read back on what my life has been like, I see how blessed I am. I have such great friends, a super supportive family, and the most amazing kids. I have a good life, God has been faithful. When I find myself struggling I make myself look - look at all I do have. I have a good life. I still miss John - that hole remains. And yet life goes on and all the good things are still there. I'm just missing him today.

6 comments:

CLR said...

It was just one of those days today!!! I love you all!!!

chrissie said...

Beautifully said.

I'm shedding lots of tears reading that poem and remembering John with you.

Kristen said...

I am in tears from your poem. My heart aches for you - praying for you!

Cathi Hamen said...

me too girl! i am sad too.. we get soo busy but to slow don and realize he isn't here.. i miss his humor and his frustration with our "G" but i love you and how strong you are my friend. You are amazing...

one of those days....
we will celebrate your life together in palm springs on cinco de mayo weekend!

Joyful Weddings & Events said...

love you shan. Thanks for posting that- it brought tears to my eyes. I've been missing him a lot lately too- small things will remind me.

I pray for you almost daily and am proud to be your little sis!

Kelly said...

You are so amazing and strong! I didn't know John but he seemed to be such a light...you are too!